I'm Twenty Two !!!

Woo Hoo !!! Today is my birthday and I am Twenty Two Years Old !!! How does it feel to be 22 ?? Any different from 21, from 20 ?

Well, 21 was a momentous year. The year I turned into a legal adult . The point since when I could do my own thing and nobody could question. (Not really, but then somthings should be exaggerated !! )

And 22 is really far far away from 20. 20 is the age when I had a two digit age where the first digit is not 1, from the time I could remember (he he, what a sad joke !). There were two full years before I graduated, two long years before I had to be responsible and behave like an adult. [Atleast half an adult ;-)]

Somehow 22 feels like any other day. Uneventful the year may or may not be, but this birthday feels momentous none at all... No feeling of being in the threshhold of a new beginning.

But however the feeling haunting me since the end of college days whenever I think of a job reiterates itself. The feeling of dread akin to that of a man about to be 'walked the plank'. A man who does not know how to swim, or how far away or in which direction land lies.[Leave out the sharks, it complicates things far too much for me to handle...]

Dread that fills a person when he knows that in a very short time he'll be in the deep water and will have to pick a direction and start swimming as best as he can whether he likes it or not !!! Of not knowing if he'll drown as soon as he hits the water due to the inability to learn swimming in such a short time or drown after exhaustion renders him unable to propel himself further. Or whether salvation of a nearby shore awaits him... (Don't want a desert island, some place where they are looking for a KING would be fine (not a place where thay eat kings either a la Pirates 2!!!))

Will anybody ever give me a job ?!?

Guess I travelled far from the Birthday post :-)

Anyway thanks for all those calls and wishes... And to John and Abhi for the gift...